I've Been Recovering From A Case of Self-Mutilation

Written on 8:50 PM by Jack B.

I'm a rather staid person. I don't smoke, never taken any illegal drugs and drink only on special occasions. I don't go clubbing or partying and try not to do anything that will bring attention to myself. That said, just over a week ago, I had a moment of insanity and cut my hair - cut ALL my hair. I don't know what happened, I had just finished my Italian class (so glad that's over) and was just thinking about getting some piece and quiet in the few days of my vacation left. So it was hot and I was laying down in the middle of the night and my head was itching like crazy from the prickly heat and my hair was all sticky from sweat. I just got tired of it and wondered what I would look like if I had no hair (ever since my hair started thinning this issue has obsessed me) so I went into the dresser drawer, took out some scissors and started cutting....and cutting...and cutting. Finally I looked in the mirror and found the whole front of my head hairless to the scalp - I looked hideous but it was too late to go back now. If I had to salvage the situation I would have to cut the rest of it off and make it look even. In the end I had to get it all sheared, front and back, down to the scalp. It was horrible. I felt like a freak. Now I come from a family of bald men so I should be used to the look but one of my greatest fears has been whats going to happen if/when I get that way. I don't know what came over me. I dealt with the situation by wearing a hat (AND NEVER TAKING IT OFF) for the rest of the week. It's bad enought I had to see myself like that - no one else was going to.

It's a little better now. Most of it has grown back and returned somewhat to normal. Hopefully within another week it'll be long enough to comb. But I've learned my lesson - never again...from now on I'd rather have an itchy, sweaty head than look like Uncle Fester. Let this be a lesson to all you young boys and girls - stay away from scissors. It'll save you from hours in therapy.